just my thoughts for today: )

How much is there really to do when you have friends that are fucked..
You laugh, play, joke around with them and go through hell with them...
Weither its drugs or cutting... or just plain out stupidity.. to see them overdose on pills to let the pain go away:( i thought i'd be ready i thought i could handle it but as i found out tonight i wasnt.... I cried myself half way to sleep but i still havent fully slept yet and its 4 O'clock. i will never be able to forget what i've seen today.. the effects of pills.. why they can fuck up a person so fast and they not be fully in control of what takes place... I am only 14 and for some reason in my mind i still shouldnt have to witness shit like this.. then again i shouldn't be cussing either but i guess its a life choose..so as I'm on the computer i think about things that have happened in my life and why others could have worst and how worst could it really be?? All the people who committed suicide why did they do it? Yet, no matter what reason i have never found myself saying it was stupid....cuz you just never know there situation... and if you had been that person if you can handle it? when your watching t.v. and a persons on a bridge do you ever think "Thats stupid" if so for once think why they could be doing it. Dont get me wrong i think suicide is a choose of course just will never be my choose. Try to understand the unexplainable, the unthinkable, and the unimaginable and light could be shown over this cold hard world we call "home".