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I use to be here to release steam; in combination with my sophomoric superiority, I didn't care what any one had to say about it. I miss that honestly, that tenacious teenager that didn't give a damn. Things were so much simpler, the words also flowed of the tongue. Now an adult I'm so much more analytical about things, imbedded in logic and complex thought or theory, my mind is racing now. Ive found the words. This should still be my place to release steam. It is time to start writing again.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Clocks and screws.

*I'm standing in your light again.
Without a doubt, I need an end,
that won't destroy my self-esteem,
You know you're right, or so it seems.

*I desperately search for answers,
they're here and there, True prancers.
A bondage over me? No, not you.
I'll leave, guess its the last thing to do.

All in all I haven't tried,
to find our garden, which we hide.
My place of refuge as a kid,
your place of secrets to get rid.
Found nothing more than dust and bones.
It's not the place I called my own.
You took my haven, now you flee.
Look at what you did to me
.

You left me here scared,
hurt, embarrassed, Feathered and tarred.
You made me miserable, laughed at my pain
You dont know who you messed with let me show you my name
you'll regret every wrong doing ever committed,
I'm evil and vicious, you will be convicted.
I'll show no mercy for i have no sympathy
You have no meaning, you'll go down miserably.

You trashed my image, shattered my star.
She's changed in ways you can't repair.
Tell me, have you seen the news?
Have you someone else to use?
Driven to tears, I no longer cry.
You told me before that I have no right.
All that I was and not what I am.
I shouldn't be worried, I cannot forget.
Those deep nights in horror, the nightmares I had,
is all that's remaining of you and my past.

You think you've won dont you?
This game is over and done with, I'm through.
I no longer cry,
So simply in reply,
forget your nightmares,
throw them out the window with all my cares.

Clearly I remember the windows filled with snow.
"If you loved me, why'd you let me go?"
Bury me in honor, 'twas all I ever had.
I didn't want to start out bitter. Didn't mean to make you mad.

I didn't mean to, but if you cared
Why'd you go? In to nohtingness i stared.
I remember a time when you were there,
So vague and faint, but a time we shared.  

And here's where the garden flourished as kids.
Snow flakes upon it, remarkable, it is.
As I watched through the window, I found my lost love.
She walked up the doorsteps and looked up above.
I smiled and waved as she ran passed the door.
I could hear her footsteps rising to my floor.
You no longer exist, you hurt me enough.
I'm ready to die with my one true love.
* = Color key!
*ROSE
*JAZMINE

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