Rose and Jazmine poetry off; Break me down by Red

(lyrics)And there is nowhere left to hide, turn and face these empty eyes, all alone, heart untold, trying to find, Break me down. Replace this fear inside,, take this nothingness from me, I want to find,I want to shine, I want to rise, Break me down.

(Rose)For nothingness is never nothing, it's just a word to feel empty with. And the light we try to find will never shine in our direction, only darkness can break me down. Loneliness is all around. And I am so alone. So alone.

(jazmine)Alone I stand, no one around. Not one care in sight, Again i feel nothingness, feeling no other word to use, the only way to describe such a feeling as such. Light doesn't shine, till over the horizon the clouds part and i am full of anguish. I see the light, there is hope. Theres's always hope.

(Rose)Hope will revive my strength. It keeps my mind stable and my heart from imploding. It shows there will be something better. And someone better. The clouds will go away and all I'll see are better days. For not knowing where to turn, this is a pretty good start.

(Jazmine)Blindly i begin my journey, my pursuit for happiness. All focus on what's in store for a corrupted and broken heart. Trying to stay positive, but sometimes failing. I realize to move forward it must end, the thoughts of the past always bothering me bugging me telling me, you messed up, theres is no place of bliss for someone like you, someone who hurt others and had no re-guard for the well being of other's or yourself. I look ahead, up at the beautiful blue sky, realizing what i've done, i begin to change for the better. To save a broken soul, who doesn't want to fix a broken soul.

(Rose)No matter how I try, I cannot break free from this spell. Although there are remedies to treat it, I cannot break free. Everything goes in circles, he's always changing his mind, cursing myself with this spell. Who can I look up to now that I'm cursed? No one can save me now. This has gone on far enough. I will be strong. I will take over. I will let myself be. And I will be myself again.

(Pearl Jam lyrics) There's no need to hide. We're safe tonight.

Time to re-locate.

I'm starting to realize that i have been suffering from depression for a really long time now. I dont know why, well i kind of do but I dont know how to handle it or what to do. I think it also has something to do with where i live. So i think its time for me to go. I need to move there is just to much stuff here, to much memories, and it hurts. So many people here have problems uncontrollable feelings and i have to deal with them because I am the one when your feeling sad I feel it to, You being depressed makes me twice as depressed. I would never blame The way i feel on anyone else. But now is the time. Everyone is out of control, Its like waves of emotions coming at me, and i am the one who shows them and feels them as if they were my own. There not. I may be depressed but it would be so much easier to get over this stuff somewhere else. So I'm going to live with my dad. That's a Risky thing to do but im sure that this will better me. I'm sorry to all the people that I am leaving behind. I'm sorry. I just cant stay here anymore. I'm sorry that when you get upset or your depressed or angry you cant talk to me. I'm sorry that i wont be there to help you get over it faster. But for once in my life i think im going to have to think of myself, I'm tired of hurting. Its time for me to runaway. Think of it like im sick and im absent from school, when i come back i will be better, stronger, better, and wiser than i was before. It's time.
-Jazmine <3

If we all had the chance it would definitely be taken (:

So young and tender
Not knowing, full of wonder,
No doubts,
No hardships
To grow up to live,
Where hate is everywhere.
To have, to have such power to overcome,
But not strong enough to do so.
To deal with pain,
Death,
Confusion, and love.
If only we all could stay in the good days,
Where candy was good and coodies were bad.

If only we ALL.

Risky Business

Like most believe that love is vital for survival, I do agree!
I'm lonely like a stray wondering the streets.
The only chance i have at love is to be wasted
considering im a chicken.
I like him so much, with my mind never off him.
I try so hard-
Yet try not, it seems impossible.
I go out of my way to see him, speak to him.
see his smile that i cant so resist but to smile back.
i think the thing that hurts the most is the thought that he doesnt like me back.
so to hear it; to know it, would be Devastating!
I'm just not willing to risk it.

To Miss Louise Olivia hunter by Edgar Allen Poe

Edgar Allen Poe is my favorite poet. People say he was crazy which i dont doubt, but that is part of what made him brilliant in my eyes. This is one of my favorite poems.



Though i turn, I fly not-
I cannot depart;
I would try, but try not
To release my heart.
And my hopes are dying.
While, on dreams relying,
I am spelled by art.

Thus, the bright snake coiling.
'Neath the forest tree
Wins the bird, beguiling,
To come down and see:
Like that bird the lover
Round his fate will hover
Till the blow is over
And he sinks-
Like me.

One in Particular.

Their idiotic and I don't think they realize what it is they are doing.
But this one? Oh! She knows for she has her ways like me,
straight from that tree,
Same roots yet in hers you find something different.
things you despise.
Nagging, Bitching and hypocritical thinking.
The apple may not fall far from the tree,
But see my trees on a hill,
And i damn sure can roll away.

Long-distance relationships

Long-distance relationships kill. They are the most horrible form of a relationship possible. At least from the forms i have experienced, and i admit not many. But this is my philosophy. They kill, in brutal, violent ways. Killing you from the inside and at first, you dont even realize it because your so happy. Then, it gets farther along and you realize these little every-other-weekend visits aren't cutting it. later, work gets in the way. No more scheduled meetings. The times your suppose to be meeting begins to fluctuate, bringing more anguish and discomfort. You never noticed but you begin to act different slightly. Friends comment always saying "Are you okay? Somethings just different about you." Hell, you completely ignore it. Until, something happens and you realize something really has altered about you. Whether it be your attitude, or just you in general. Your friends, they just know. The light missing from the sun. It's just not there. The weather man mentioned cloudy skies not an eclipse. Now, understand this doesn't happen to everyone. But eventually, the calls stop coming and you try so hard to find out if something is wrong, you start thinking up ridiculous ideals. "He/She's been hurt." Stuff like that. You get antsy. But after a long period of time of happiness then some horrible feeling, you realize you can hurt one another like this. No matter how much you love each other. You try to weigh out you options and theres no better solution but to break up. Lets be happy, not like this. We can find someone else to make us happy. We can still talk, be friends its for the better. Back to my point, long-distance relationships kill emotionally and mentally. Never thought it could hurt me but it did. After a while i remembered my heart began to hurt. The weirdest thing ever, my heart was breaking. A couple of days ago, all that hurt stopped when me and my boyfriend broke up. Of course i cried like most girls, but after a while i got a hold of reality and felt better. You should be happy not sad. After all, there are more people out there and just you him i will be happy, we will be friends and i will find someone else that makes me feel the way i once did with him.