Tarah story (:

Once upon a time there was a.....frog? YEA. it was a frog.

It was a purple frog....with yellow spots :D

The frogs name was.........Gayle.

All the other frogs were jelly 'cause Gayle was uniquely pretty xD
and Gayle had a lover, his name was Edward

Uhm...Gayles worst enemy was a evil cat...named Billiam Bobart

Billiam thought Edward should die so he could steal Gayle
So, to get his way.....Billiam trricked Edward into going for a "walk"
Billiam planned to gobble Edward up before the night was over
Little did Billiam know, Gayle knew of this evil plan
and just as Billiam went to swallow Edward, Gayle screams "swiper no swiping"
Though it meant nothing, it distracted Billiam from his task and Edward went NINJA frog and killed Billiam
And Gayle and Edward lived happily ever after with three kids, Shay, Dee, and Skeeter xD


Moral of the story: Frogs are badass and in the end love conquers ALL

Disastrous

It could be bad,
Feelings this strong only stay for so long.
I've never been here.
It's the highest I've ever been
And I'm hanging in your arms
With belief you won't let me fall.
The fall is horrendous,
Surely it brings nothing less than death.
You swear this is your last time.
Your words so welcoming and believable.
I trust you, never been so sure;
But boy are we high.
This is dangerous!!
One slip is all it takes
And I F
          A
             L
               L
To a bottomless pit.

There's fear on the horizon,
It stretches from my heart to yours.
I believe it can last
And only fear brings me to question so;
But you know something
My love surpasses this pest called fear.

I'm screwed and crazy
I have problems
And if you can love me for my faults
And the possible insanity to come,
Then us...
Together..
Should be able to take on any army,
And come out on top, as Victors;
And still be able to look at each other
And say 'I love you' with true feeling,
Through bad and good,
In any state of mind.

If not together,
I fall to impending doom.
So baby tell me are you ready?
Do you believe?
In some Parallel Universe we were meant to be
My only hope is that it is this one...
Because this could be Disastrous.
- Jazmine x3

I'll just have to live with no backbone.

I was once told that when you give all you have for never nothing in return, that things play out for the better... Seems it never worked but still I tried.. help and help and help, give here, save someone there, let everyone have their way.... yup that's me.. For it is now who I am, its been my whole entire life. Trust, that's not a bad thing but nothing ever seems to get better worse and worse it falls upon me like the heavy beating on a drum head.... Searching for answers, now I'm told different, "If you want something being nice and giving others what someone else wants NEVER gets you anywhere, sometimes when you want something you have grow a backbone and tell them what you want. Sometimes it's good to be selfish."

I wish I had a backbone and possessed some characteristic to even be selfish. But you know its not about myself so hell why not. Hurting myself has been written down many times, I don't see why I should stop now. After all it's all about everyone else(:
 - Jazmine x3
~Old~ 5/7/11 ~Old~
*Thinking out loud it seems*

Abort this mission.

Slowly making my way back to that door.
I shouldn't have came this far in the room anyways.
Why did i come this far, what made me think staying in this room could make a difference. 
I get sicker and sicker ever day in this weather, 
its time for me to migrate. 
Slowly edge on back. :/ 
I see nothing but bright lights...
and I don't do well in bright lights. 
It Gives me headaches, 
countless headaches, 
till i cant take it no more, it begins to rain on me.
It's beauty in its worse. 
The river is filling up, 
I soon begin to drown. 
A death by water, for me most peaceful. 




- Jazmine x3 
~Old~ 7/6/11 ~Old~ 

Houdini had it lucky

Days like this I can't seem to figure shit out,

I've been down then up now I'm back again. 

Reappearing act, damn call me Houdini. 

Two years. You have great memory, you always did. 

Two years.  I have been feeling this way for you. 

And yet Two years pass and it's barely changing. 

Two years pass and I'm still in the friend zone. 

Shit, if I'm Houdini can I make you disappear? 

How about her too? 

Better yet, I could do some hocus pocus trick 

And make it all turn better. 

Make it so the game is mine,  

Things go my way, none of this confusion

And sadness, none of that.
Never that.
Sad thing is, I'm not Houdini.
I cant make things go my way,
I will never win, because he has his love
And even if they broke off and went their ways
How can i possibly believe that he would love me
Like I do him.
I have nothing to go on but a feeling
And a love that is powerful
I long to be his everything but
I'm just a girl in love with no lover.
- Jazmine<3
~Old~ 11/16/10 ~Old~

Clocks and screws.

*I'm standing in your light again.

Without a doubt, I need an end,
that won't destroy my self-esteem,
You know you're right, or so it seems.

*I desperately search for answers,

they're here and there, True prancers.
A bondage over me? No, not you.
I'll leave, guess its the last thing to do.

All in all I haven't tried,

to find our garden, which we hide.
My place of refuge as a kid,
your place of secrets to get rid.
Found nothing more than dust and bones.
It's not the place I called my own.
You took my haven, now you flee.
Look at what you did to me.

You left me here scared,

hurt, embarrassed, Feathered and tarred.
You made me miserable, laughed at my pain
You dont know who you messed with let me show you my name
you'll regret every wrong doing ever committed,
I'm evil and vicious, you will be convicted.
I'll show no mercy for i have no sympathy
You have no meaning, you'll go down miserably.

You trashed my image, shattered my star.

She's changed in ways you can't repair.
Tell me, have you seen the news?
Have you someone else to use?
Driven to tears, I no longer cry.
You told me before that I have no right.
All that I was and not what I am.
I shouldn't be worried, I cannot forget.
Those deep nights in horror, the nightmares I had,
is all that's remaining of you and my past.

You think you've won dont you?

This game is over and done with, I'm through.

I no longer cry,

So simply in reply,

forget your nightmares,

throw them out the window with all my cares.

Clearly I remember the windows filled with snow.

"If you loved me, why'd you let me go?"
Bury me in honor, 'twas all I ever had.
I didn't want to start out bitter. Didn't mean to make you mad.

I didn't mean to, but if you cared

Why'd you go? In to nohtingness i stared.

I remember a time when you were there,

So vague and faint, but a time we shared.  

And here's where the garden flourished as kids.

Snow flakes upon it, remarkable, it is.
As I watched through the window, I found my lost love.
She walked up the doorsteps and looked up above.
I smiled and waved as she ran passed the door.
I could hear her footsteps rising to my floor.
You no longer exist, you hurt me enough.
I'm ready to die with my one true love.

* = Color key!

*ROSE

*JAZMINE

Through envy, I fear is where the doubt begins.

How could i ever open up to someone who doesnt seem to care?
Theres no red flare, telling me you give two shits so why should i waste my time...
damn me feeling like i have to savor everyones feelings.
Why do i have to care so?
From the start it was amazing
boy at times it still is.
Point out the faults, maybe you cant so let me help.
talk with me baby let me see your thoughts,
Give me that chance of getting to know you..
Your so close with that perfect girl,
and when you talk to her it hurts,
not that you talk to her.
Through envy, I fear is where the doubt begins.
I long to be in her position.
You hold her dear, maybe cuz of the knowledge.
Open your gates for a foreign figure.
It might just help.
Love me baby, love me like you should,
tis all i ask for. Is it to much.
Can understand if your feelings arent strong.
but tell me, open, speak colors unknown to my soul.
Im supposedly your first,
not to put disbelief in your story,
experience is not there yet,
I should lead you the right way,
for ive no experience in your type.
How would you not know
how to handle these, in my eyes,
oh so simple tasks.
tis like training a newborn,
hell, a newborn is all the more easy.
I just dont get you,
but oh do i love you.
not in love but love,
i care, it sucks that you must depart.
you mean alot to me,

i wish i could even hear you say the same

It would be my curse to see through,
such great hellos, have to have such rushed goodbyes.

When you need me.

"I'm trying to help as many as I can, but pardon if i dont get to you sooner, for in time, shortly, I will help you. Its the only thing I'm here on this good earth to do. I mend the sad and often confused and tend to the broken, they need it to. Where ever i am needed that's where i will go. I'll be here for you as long as you need, after all It's what im destined to be."

How easy it is to me.

Silently she moves, a true master in disguise.
Everything she does is pent up, this she knows is unwise.
Boiling be the feelings in her, Nuclear meltdown!
The smiling stops, everything gets to her, she has a frown.
Under the weather, such a simple reply.
Hoodwink them all, truth be, them she can defy.
It is not as hard as most believe,
To smile in the eyes of the ones that "care"; For they're fairly naive.

-Jazmine<3 

This eerking feeling that hurts oh so much.

The tears, they burn, like sulferic acid, oww.
My aching body tred on by many herds.
Headaches, like drills to the head, over and over.
The heart in two, divided it be but every beat, unfortunately,
flows through my body  successfully.


-jazmine<3
_ a while back ago ? 

Baffled be;

Split way of life not know which way is right, baffled be.
When together your picture perfect, but no more, baffled be.
Baffled be the ones with it on there plate,
When your with someone you've just met, a clean slate.
Years later still going strong, closer than ever imagined,
Feelings in the air, all around everywhere but sadden,
Be the baffled, for no move is ever made. 
Forever it seems nothing changes.

Baffled be the ones blessed with a curse, 
One who's so in love with two ; so much love you want to burst.
Frustration kicks in after long; these be the baffled.
Endless possibilities, good and bad like a raffle. 
But baffled be the one that does not speak,
Truth is all one wishes to seek.
Stays there and watches as all the feelings begin to sink,
Not sure of what to do next, baffled be in need of a shrink.
Far to much on the baffled mind to focus;
But maybe ones baffled thoughts are bogus?
With no guide or hint the baffles be restless,
For that answer or first move they so long for to be breathless 

Baffled be the emotionally stricken downward;
Baffled be the mentally confused spinning spiral; 
Baffled be the despondency in the making; 
And the saddened themselves
Baffled be the situational solvers, 
That it seems answer can not be found. 
Baffled be the one dandelion in a brand new field;
Baffled be anyone struggling in any way. 
The baffled be you and many others but especially me. 
-jazmine<3